to music, play checkers.
At 18:00, Norma went to therapy with a psychologist, and I can finally rest in peace. Only first you need to talk to Diana, now she needs all the support and care.
Day 25.
Today is Wednesday, February 1, 2069.
12: 44. It's hard to believe that a month of my stay in the hospital has already passed. The last few weeks have passed quickly.
I haven't seen Norma since last night. She didn't go out for dinner and breakfast. I'm worried about this, so I'll talk to Lavender during lunch and ask about Norma's health. I don't even have a clue as to why she's suddenly withdrawn.
If you remember, she never talked about her experiences and the cause of depression, or it's just that I was not interested. We really need to talk.
19: 32. At a quiet hour, Sophie came up and said that I needed to pack my things. She was wearing casual clothes and cleaning my bedclothes, while explaining that we had to go to the property management system in time to register me as the tenant of a room in their apartment. Because of this rush, I didn't even have time to say goodbye to anyone and talk to Norma. I just realized that I don't even have her phone number or blog address. You should definitely visit her as soon as possible. For now, I should put my things away and set up my room, if Diana will let me.
She was incredibly happy to see me and immediately ran to bake a birthday cake. In the process, Diana constantly asked me about my taste preferences and slightly changed the recipe of the cake depending on my answers, very nice of her.
It is hard to believe that this energetic girl with a smile that never leaves her face, survived the horror that she wrote to me about. But now everything will be fine, I'll take care of my little sister.
Day 26.
Today is Thursday, February 2, 2069.
07:26. I'm going to walk Diane to school and head to my CCP to check my schedule and resume my training.
10:39. I was given a schedule for the next week and told that I don't have to attend unscheduled classes and do extra classes. But I replied that I felt good and wanted to catch up with the curriculum faster. Then I was advised to go through the departments and take lectures to do self-study until next Monday.
When I approached each lecturer, I had to tell them the reason for my absence, and this is tedious.
Now I have things to do for the next three days, but on Saturday I'm going to go to Norma's and spend the whole time there. I think she will be angry and resentful of me for a long time because I left her alone, disappeared without saying anything. I asked Sophie to take care of her, so everything should be fine.
And now it's time to eat and drink herbal tea with the remaining cake, after which I'll start my lectures.
19:42. I decided to go to my parents ' house in the grove. I didn't have to wander long to find two orange sprouts. It's still hard to believe they're gone. I want to think that they flew safely and are just on a business trip, but these young trees bring back to reality. We need to move on. These trees will grow taller with age to remind you of their existence, because as the years go by, the memories of the dead will become more and more hazy.
Mom and Dad, I miss you, I really miss you. Without you, I have a loved one. Without you, I have found a new meaning in my life. I can be happy without you. But this is a different kind of happiness. Thank you for everything.
After these thoughts, I was about to go home, but I met Ail sitting on a bench. I decided to sit down next to him, and he spoke: "Oh, Katsu, are yours in this grove too? So I'll probably see you again.
I've come to say goodbye to the Rose, but I can't get close to this lilac sprout. I think that when I approach it, the ground will disappear from under my feet. I'll die without her, without that red-haired one. I haven't said goodbye to her yet. It still lives somewhere out there, in my memory, in my heart. And if I say good-bye, Katsu, if I say good-bye to her, there will be nothing left! You hear, emptiness and only. There is nothing in my life but her, and there never was. And now they don't even let you die normally. People are just puppets trying to live. We are controlled by the system. Now she decides who is worthy of a happy life, and who should disappear.
I'm being sent to the yellow city. They were considered inferior, although they themselves deprived me of everything, took away the most precious thing I had. How do you stay "normal" after that? And I don't even know my own mother. Maybe we'll meet her in that city.
Katsu, live happily, and don't let anyone take away the meaning of your life, otherwise you will break, everyone will break. Goodbye. "
After his monologue, he got up and went to a small sprout, on a sign next to it was written: "Rose Fireri 2052-2068".
Now I'm going home and I think it's time for us to say goodbye. I set up the diary for therapeutic purposes. Now that my treatment has stopped, these records are no longer necessary.
20: 13. * Delete the diary. *
– Sophie's new mother status has not been removed. -
– The status of Diana's little sister has not been deleted. -
– Ail's friend status has been deleted. -
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